Today, my music player just shuffling music randomly and landed in LUV D.N.A by MC Mong, a track in his last album in 2010 (that before he went hiatus until now). Unconsciously…I’m crying silently, don’t understand why
I’m…afraid to sleep
afraid to meet tomorrow and meet people again
for this 7 weeks, there were no times I can sleep peacefully
I’m waking up for every 15 minutes
then fall asleep and forgot everything
and wake up after 15 minutes again
it’s ridiculous that I just realize this now
among the last 7 weeks and the last week left
this life taken toll of me too much
shall I keep in this pathway?
that title might be the most appropriate words to say
ever since november last year, I’ve been indulged and drown in my own life, despair, happiness, all things mixed into one. And if you ever known me before, I’m really not into the stable state, I just dont care how the capital letter will display, and I don’t think about it.
My fan account no.3 and 4 is delayed as you’ve known, just because the real life taken my time about too much, but we should accept it do we? *sigh*
The problem is, I can’t write, my fan account no 3 contains despair and tiring, you may sense that I’m bit mad at that one. While my no.4…hmmm… I lost them along with my phone 1 month ago, all the drafts..the detail. Am I sad? Yes, I am, but none other make me sadder that two of my friends was forced to drop out the program that I’m belong now. Heck for all the system, I’m questioning humanity in this program now. How can we behold of humanity when the managerial is just less about it?
and just today, I’m mistakenly almost took a life, my close friend…coincidentally of course, but there are responsibilities for all things, for all suggestion you make. so.. to be say, I’m really in desperate condition. Not to mention my round wil come in less than 2 weeks, I’m afraid what this program will makes me later.
so, dear friend, I beg you, please keep talkin to me, even though I don’t answer, because you all arevthe one that kep my sanity now. …
*end of ranting*
Hey, I miss that smile.
When Naivety is all we have, when happiness is just as simple as holiday.
Hey, I miss that time
when we were young and free, and all of the world is only we and we
Hey. I love that time
when we were stupid (and still will be?) and learn things so eagerly
overly confidence because we didn’t know which should we chose
stubborn for our words, standing in our own feet
Hey, I want that time back
But my dear, life was never easy to begin weren’t they?
After separated our way and finally gathered back, gulped some spoonfuls of laksa and a bit touch up, we (me, Ella, April, Mich, Ulil and Dije) ready our self to face Seung Gi in the fansign. Bad for me, I left my ‘war equipment’ in the base camp, say hi to oily face =___= at last Ella handed me wet tissue, and Mich lend me her lip gloss, well at least I’m not a frying pan ready to fry eggs :p
Reached the area, it turn out the fan signing was delayed until next day, but fan signing pass holder (by other mean us) were allowed to enter the press conference zone, well, standing it isthe queue is a very long looongg queue! Worst… our group was the last one to queue!*bite handkerchief* But somehow, I’m glad we’re the last one, It’s a rendezvous, I met a lot, talk a lot. Do you think we’d stood still while queuing? Dare to say so! We’re mingling here and there, greet airen from all over the country, from other country, complaining a little bit, chitchat a lot ;), all in high sprit!.
While mingling, I left the queue (who cares by the way? I am the last one :p) until suddenly I heard excited scream, turning my head over, I ran back to the queue, asked others“Has he came? Has he? Where? Where is he now??” And the scream was heard all over again, it was deafening, jinjja!! I saw airen turn their head over the left side, and a few airen ran desperately to the lift over there. So yes, he came! We jumping excitedly like little girl ~, but, but where is he? Why didn’t we saw any glimpse of him? Ah, Mr. Munial hid him in the backstage tent, those two special indoor tents, for our king. Ah Sir, you don’t understand any fangirling things, don’t you? As expected, for each time any movement was seem from the tents, there were uproar among airen xb
Waiting, queuing, and waiting, finally we’re allowed to enter the zone. Continue Reading →